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2008-04-07T17:30:00.008+08:00

alot of things happened over the weekends, or rather yesterday and today. so much so that i dunno where to start from. haha, it's a good thing that i can still laugh.

i just invited trouble by posting the previous post (points below) and putting my blog link on my msn nick. lol, i dunno it's heng or suay and 'trouble' came. it dampens my mood completely, and killed my appetite completely. i cursed and sweared at city hall like nobody's business. and today's tension in class was horrible. alot of unhappiness, anger everywhere and anywhere. and it all started from one person. not me ok. i hope everything is settled, and all unhappiness are cleared.

and this is a reply to your sms.

i didnt even wish for a second chance, i didnt even hope for a second chance nor am i pleaing you to come back to me. i just want to tell you, i'm giving you up totally and completely. if using the excuse of 'our relationship wont work cos we have diff expectations of a r/s' to cover up the fact that your feelings have changed will make you feel better, will make you sound like a nicer man, so be it. if hurting me at the expense of your happiness doesnt matter to you at all, so be it. if you havent realise, but everything you said to me, yh and maybe fy(i not sure) on sunday are nothing but just adding on to the pain to me. cos all i can see is how protective you are to her and how ignorant you are to my feelings. how you dont even care how i feel. how you dont even care if im going to die this very moment (dont worry, i wont die for you) it's like taking a knife, and stabbing me in my unhealed wounds all over again. if you are so numb to other people's feelings and you only care about your own happiness, i think you should go learn to be a better man. i'm not blaming you, nor am i going to hate you to core, i will treat like normal. like nothing happened before and you are just my classmate. thats all. and you should start think of all the things you've done. stop pushing the blame to the others, there are times you are wrong too, isnt it. and this whole thing you cant blame her and her either. they are merely writing what they sees. now things have officially ended, between you and me. you are free to do whatever you like. no one is stopping you from doing anything. take care my dear, i will treat you as per normal, as a classmate of mine. if you are unhappy with what i've just said or you think i've misunderstand you comepletely, come find me. i love troubles(:

as for now, i will try my best to forget him, forget everything. in the meantime, it will continue to hurt until i completely forgets him. but all these pain will only make me grow stronger. i believe i will be back very soon(: he's just yet another guy whom i met, i thought you are different but im so fucking wrong.

and thanks to people out there who really cared, my girls( shuhan, vanessa, andrea and michelle), joey ng, S18 people who tagged on my board (kax, marc, allyssa and so on), jiehui, ah beng, siyuan, vincent, roy, suz, sp, yh, fy. thanks man, i'm getting out of this shit. i cant believe i'm so blind and so dumb. i'm living a brand new life(:

and on this note, im ending everything. my love for you, my care for you, my worries for you, everything that concerns you. im ending it with this blog(: im closing down this place. i will set up a new blog if im not lazy. so people who are close to me, ask me for the new link(:(:

and i wish you happiness(:

(Edited)
one random thought and one last question before everything ends. how can you bear to do this to me, do i mean so little in your eyes.

let those tears flow one last time, and this is really the last time. it's not easy, but i will get over it.

it's over.

2008-04-06T13:54:00.002+08:00

in a relationship it doesnt matter who's right, but who left. i believe that in a relationship there's no right and wrong. it doesnt matter if the feelings have fade, it doesnt matter if you've changed or not , it doesnt matter why and what happened. cos end of the day, does it really make any difference. the trust is gone. i should try looking at things from the other side, from any point of view. or rather imagine myself in that situation. things just get so much clearer.

i stopped hoping, stopped waiting for another glimpse of hope, stopped waiting for a second chance. not because my feelings are gone, but because i found something more meaningful to focus on. not another guy. so it really doesnt matter anymore. im too tired to continue to reach for something which keeps slipping by.

time will show, if we are running in circles. if we are, then we'll meet someday. if not, at least we have those memories to stay.

for now, let us be. do whatever you like, as long as you are happy. i will be somewhere near you.

im tired, my dear.
TILL WE MEET(:

2008-04-05T22:12:00.003+08:00

had CIP today. flag day, boring shit. i was late, couldnt wake up on time.it wasnt on purpose to be late and it wasnt an acident either. i just want to reach on the dot but end up i was late. and i thought i was the latest. neh mind, i mean never mind -.- haha. so i saw what i have been expecting one whole night. fuck shit, i dont understand why it just affects me so damn much. ok, neh mind, i mean never mind. on this note, i addicted to saying neh mind, instead of NEVER MIND. LOL LOL LOL(: (: (: i'm going to quit saying NEH MIND, rofl. was damn tired during CIP. slacked around, and i miss doing flag day with zhonghua people. going for breakfast the moment we get our cans, go shuhan's house to slack, go eat, go slack, go shopping. those days, those memories <3

flag day ended, nothing much happened. didnt lunch with my classmates, didnt feel like it and time doesnt permits also. met vane at bishan and she pei-ed me eat lunch, then tuition. maths tuition was super torturing cos im super sleepy. plus that super super boring topic, wha i really can sleep. then met fyn while on the way home, called han, expecting her to be somewhere in yishun. walked over to yishun bk and talked to her abit then went home(: freaking tired lah.

ok, im super super tired. trust me, im super tired ok. yea, i need to work hard. piano lesson tmr and celebrating minghan's belated birthday. excited(:(:(:

TILL THEN.

2008-04-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

i'm currently very into old songs, yes old CHEENA songs. and i now in love with this song. i keep singing it in sch, so much so that i think that my clique people is getting influenced by me. HAHA. the chorus totally says what my heart wants to say. and those tears, you will never know ):

歌名:忘记你我做不到
歌手:张学友

有爱就有恨或多或少
有幸福就有烦恼
除非你都不要
跟你的温柔比较
一切变得不重要
没有你分分秒秒
都是煎熬

有爱就有恨或多或少
想一次白头到老
说再见太潦草
看你头也不回地走掉
心里像火烧
分分秒秒没有你
管他艳阳高照

忘记你我做不到
不去天涯海角
在我身边就好
要是承诺不可靠
是什么让我们拥抱

忘记你我做不到
不去天涯海角
在我身边就好
如果爱是痛苦的泥沼
让我们一起逃

believe me when i say i ~~miss~~ you. but i know, it's over.

2008-04-03T21:24:00.002+08:00

bowled after school today and the most pai seh thing happened. i dropped my ball cos it's too heavy for me. OK IT'S SUPER SUPER SUPER PAI SEH CAN. i was wishing a hole will open up and swallow me down. like omg, super pai seh. and dear suzanne, sp, vincent and roy was laughing damn hard. ROAR SO PAI SEH CAN. ok i swear im not going back to tampines safra to bowl. NO WAY MAN. and i freaking use a 6 pounds ball cos i cant even lift a 8 pounds ball with one hand. SO IRRITATING. and my hand is too small. IRRITATING. and my leg is so small. IRRITATING. ok, im getting irritated(:

and i so want to eat MILO MCFLURRY. i'm a milo addict(:

there's sectionals tomorrow. and i'm going to bring a zhong ruan home. ROAR!!! so freaking heavy can. further more, i'm going to town tomorrow with yeoshuhan and that ruan. ok, i dont think i want to bring it home. i shall bring it home on monday instead. im so not going to bring that zhong ruan to towwwnnn. roar.

and i cant wait to see miss yeo tmr(:
im tired. TILL THEN(:

i'm not sure whether your heart have changed. maybe yes, maybe not. but what i hate most is that attitude of yours, the way you treat me so coldly, like you never know me. im so tired seeing myself this way. so tired.

2008-04-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR SONG MINGHAN ;D
AND ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SUZANNE! ;D

too tired to blog. mentally and physically. im tired. so fucking tired. stop all this torture please. if you want to leave, return me my heart please. dont take it with you, i feel like a walking zombie right now.

TILL THEN(:

2008-03-31T22:55:00.002+08:00

in the end, it really ends up being nothing but a pool of tears. those tears, you will never understand. i'm so tired of waiting and having to wait. i waited, and waited and waited. a single hope, a last hope. it's over, my dear.

2008-03-31T20:52:00.003+08:00

i took the first step and i waited. i hoped, i prayed,what if everything ends up nothing. am i so worthless in your eyes. so much so that you dont even bother now. you dont even care at all. why do people change so fast. what am i waiting for. another hope? another chance? no, it's another shit. time to wake up, it's over.

apparently, i'm amused by STOMP. if you havent know what's happening, go read STOMP. click the first article under the section what's happening. it's way too amusing and couldnt stop laughing at all the hilarious comments. and to make things easier, if you know minghan. check out his msn nick and follow the link. HAHA. i'm still laughing at the comments ;D maybe i will get called to the whoever's office and asked to write APOLOGY LETTER for posting this up. HOLA! ;D

and i'm suppose to be doing gp and i'm blogging. i bet the rest of them will kill me if they sees this. LOL, im ultimate slacker anyway(:

and samuel was entertaining me by telling me this new underwear, called C-STRING. lol, if you want to know more about it. go google it or something. acc to sam, it's a super new product. introduced 2 months ago. i'm super amused (again) cos i thought it's dumb. might as well dont wear anything even better. or put it simply, it's like wearing pad without underwear. ok it sounds crude but whatever. lol, guys google this kind of rubbish(:

hai, i've no idea what i'm doing. i hate this totally.
TILL THEN(:
take it as a plea, come back to me.

2008-03-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

back to self delusion, haha i know what all those words mean. do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know that the lock to your heart have changed.

2008-03-30T10:50:00.003+08:00

i never left before, all i'm doing is standing in a corner, praying that you are happy.

it's great when you feel enlightened(: anyway, pretty dead. next week is a busy week. yes super busy. RAH RAH RAH RAH RAH. i hate it when CO are 3 times a week. like wth. i want my friday ok. freak. shit ass. shit ass.

and lotsa birthdays next week(:

I FEEL REALLY GREAT COS IM ENLIGHTENED. REALLT GREAT(:(:(:

i want more clothes, more shoes, most imptly MORE BAGS! retail therapy! ;D

TILL THEN(:
mugging is the IN thing now. so what are you waiting for?

2008-03-28T20:59:00.003+08:00

baby, i miss you. will you come back if i ask you to. i get so used to just seeing your bavk view and it hurts completely.

i'm hell sleepy. im getting old and weaker. RAH. and my back is aching like nobody's business. i'm really getting old. rah rah rah rah rah rah.

i dont like it when people is looking at me like a joke so i need to grow strong and get out of this shit. i know i look like a joke now. haha. as you are nursing a broken heart, he may have already forgotten your existance. i learnt that on teevee. LOL watching TEEVEE may inspire people. so go watch more teevee. aiya dont think so much lah. easier than done. but as i promised, one week(:(:(: i'm getting out of this shit. simply because im feel so damn damn damn tired. it's draining me completely.

no more nonsense anymore(: i shall stop trying so hard to be somewhere near you. love is nothing. till then(:

2008-03-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD. today was wonderful, it's been a long time since i laughed so hard and really felt happy(: outing with my darling girls were awesome, so much fun, so much love ;D THANKS GIRLS ;D

i'm really sleepy now. shall update with pictures maybe tomorrow. I LOVE MY GIRLS(:

2008-03-25T20:41:00.002+08:00

and i keep waiting till the end of time.

HELLO WORLD. today was a pretty bad day, wasnt feeling very good in the morning. physically and mentally. lessons was hell boring, AND IM SO DETERMINED TO GET OUT OF CHEMISTRY REMEDIAL. not because i hate chemistry, not because i think it's useless, in fact i will love to stay there. BUT I CANT STAND THE SCENE. i almost broke my pencil out of fustrations in class today, i guess no one knew. AND SO, I CONVINCED MYSELF TO SCORE CHEMISTRY AND GET OUT OF THAT PLACE(: you know, im so tired of having to fake that smile on my face, pretending i'm damn happy. HELLO, what you see arent always the truth. so i come to the conclusion that i will keep on smiling cos i'm really happy(: i dont want to keep pretending and faking. I FEEL SO FUCKING FAKE CAN(:

and another bad news is that CO practices are tues, wed and FRIDAY. THERE GOES MY FRIDAY. MY ONLY EARLY DAY. like wth. and i learning zhong ruan tmr. cool shit. i'm so tired, but i'm going to finish my work. BIG PLAN BIG PLAN. i'm going to show that i'm strong, i'm not weak.

and thursday im meeting cons, mich ma, vanessa, shuhan and hopefully andrea chew. LIKE SO COOL CAN. cant wait to see everyone, to get crazy with everyone(:

ok, i'm very into oldies recently. the songs touches my heart. perfectly describes my feelings(:

bye, off to do my work(:
i just wish that you will turn back and look at me once again.

2008-03-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

I MUST BE CRAZY. I SPENT 16 BUCKS AND CABBED TO NJC TODAY TO WATCH TJ VS NJ SOCCER MATCH WHICH END UP BEING CANCELLED DUE TO THE RAIN. I MUST BE CRAZY. HAHA.

i've no idea why i had that mad urge to go down to njc. ok, fine. the reason is pretty obvious, isnt it. but i didnt get to see what i wanted. ok, NVM. at least i saw ANDREA CHEW AND SONG MINGHAN ;D miss them like peanuts, almond nuts and all the nuts. we tried to mug at amk macs but the toilet is freaking stinking. so we went to eat cheapo dinner at SUMO house. cheapo jap food(: (: (: plus they give us complimentary sushi cos they are closing ;D ;D

AND SAW BENGALA! miss that asshole like nuts also. LOL, idiot. and i saw marcus too! talked to him abit and slacked at grand stand. i so miss njc, the canteen, the grand stand, that track, that field, that basketball court, EVERYTHING. i miss njc, i miss 07S18. i wish i wasnt in tjc, i wasnt in 05/07, i wish i didnt know you, i wish all these was just a dream. i just so miss life in njc ): ): ):

anyway, i guess i was labelled number one tjc traitor today. lol, i think all the tj soccer team was shock to see this idiot tj girl wearing tj uniform in njc, talking to nj soccer team, to nj people. WHATEVER. when am i ever loyal to tjc. i love njc, CANNOT AR. HAHA.

LOL IM TIRED!
till then(:(:(:

i thought i could, i tried very hard. i wanted to go over, to say hi, to say bye, to say good luck, to say jia you. that was the purpose to be there, to go over there, to see you play, to cheer you on. but in the end, i still lack that courage to do so. i couldnt even look into your eyes, i dont want to pin anymore hopes. i dont want to be given false hope. i tried very hard to forget everything that happened, to forget that i love you. but i couldnt. i didnt know it would hurt so much, i didnt know i will regret my decision made. i didnt know you will be happier this way. i didnt know, i didnt know. i cry to sleep every night, hoping that you will turn and look at me again. but you wont. i couldnt bring myself to forget everything. i thought i could, but i couldnt. when will this torture will end. i hate myself being so weak so fragile. i hate myself for being this way. i hate myself for being so whiny and not myself at all. but all i want to say i miss you, i really miss you.

2008-03-20T22:15:00.003+08:00

i hate blogging cos it just show how fragile i am.

how contradicting,

cos im still blogging.

Brick walls are there for a reason: they let us prove how badly we want things.

-Dr Randy Pausch

Brick walls are there for a reason: they let us prove how badly we will get hurt if we bang into them -.- -CHERYLNN TAN ;D

2008-03-20T20:37:00.003+08:00

maybe i look too strong on the outside, so much so that hurting me doesnt matter at all. cos i look strong to take it all. too strong. sometimes i wish i'm that strong to take it all. maybe she looks more fragile for you to protect. maybe ...

will you believe me if i say the above is just rubbish?(:

i thought i could, but i still couldnt. stop this torture, stop everything.
oh what if i say the above is rubbish again?(:

TILL THEN(:
will you believe me if i say i miss you.

it doesnt matter anymore(:

2008-03-19T22:09:00.002+08:00

'blogging is worse than constipation"- felix ong. HAHA that guy find the right word man. i totally agrees with him cos after staring at this blank space, i dunno what to blog. blogging cos i'm bored, i just want to kill time. OR RATHER, i'm finding an excuse not to do my maths assignment. i feeling very lethargic. thanks to all the medication, i'm eating none of that tmr onwards. idiot.

there's school tmr. sounds exciting ar, i wish.
TILL THEN(: (: (:

2008-03-18T16:13:00.002+08:00

was very sick yesterday, high fever. good thing i didnt die, haha. to people who cared, thank you. to people who dont, go and die(:

joey ng typed the longest msg in his whole life to me, motivating me to go to school. lol, nice chap. thanks dude(: i'm looking forward to school, happy? ;D

fever is gone, flu and sore throat still there. feel so bad not working hard for mct. back into chem remedial (a blessing in disguise though) probably i did the worst for chem. HAHA. have been sleeping too much, way too much these 2 days. time to get my ass moving and do some work.

shuhan and vanessa, JIAYOU for your block tests! ;D

TILL THEN(:

2008-03-16T22:07:00.003+08:00

damn it, i'm feeling super super super sick. down with bad flu, sore throat, headache. damn it.

and the fact that school starts TOMORROW just make my sickness even worse. i thought my hols just started and it ended. what is this man. take a break during your holidays, rest well and prepare for another race. BULLSHIT. hello, i dont even have a break thanks to the stupid test during the holidays and now im facing a big shitty pile of homework. hello, doing hw means taking a break? oh wow, i didnt know that till i'm 18. damn it.

i read this in dasmond koh's blog: in a relationship, it doesnt matter who's right but who left. haha i thought it makes alot of sense.

i seriously need to sleep, my medication making me sleepy.
good luck for school everyone, i know it suck completely.
TILL THEN(:

2008-03-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

OMG, THE WEATHER IS FREAKING HOT AND IM MELTING -.-

and so today for the first time in this march hols, i woke up late. around 10am? and f.y.i i slept at 10pm last night. and in total i slept for 12 freaking hours(: slacked for less than an hour then rushed to bishan j8 heartware office to claim my cab fare. like finally! then rushed to tuition. love it man(: went home, wanted to sleep but was super sian. wanted to go out but couldnt find any one to go out with. so decided to slacked at home then my phone rang.and dear jiehui, roy and siyuan called and decided to come my house for mahjong session(:(: yes so ate dinner with them and headed to my place for some mahjong session. so much laughter, haha. and most probably they are coming over to my place to mug tomorrow. YES MUG, maybe some mahjong after that?! hahaha. AND SEE! LIEW WAI KIT DIDNT JOIN US AGAIN! hahaha. everytime we free, he not free. hai bo sim. he's so going to kill me the next time he sees me ;D HELLO STUPID AH BENG, MEET US SOON. IF NOT WE TAKE PARANG TO YOUR PLACE. u are not the only ah beng, you know. roy can be an ah beng polar -.-"'

oh yes, and i finally packed my super messy table(: everything nicely filed up.

ahh i got piano lesson tmr and im dreading it. i want my teacher back, damn it.

TILL THEN(:

2008-03-14T20:07:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD. my march holiday just started and ending in two days' time. how great. i just got owned by MCT. chem was total depressing, hell. i mug my hell out for organic chem and end up not even a shit came up. how nice. physics was much better, at least i can do some questions. ok, i shall blame it on myself, cos i didnt study hard for it. OWNED(:

tuition tmr(:(:(: love it. and i so wanna meet my darlings, andrea; mich; vanessa; shuhan. i so miss them ): and i miss GV gang also, omg. we didnt keep our promise to meet up every week to mug. it's all ah beng's fault ;D i bet he will kill me when he sees this(:

and i've got so much to say but i always end up saying nothing. end this torture, will you.

oh yes those having MCT/BLOCK TEST soon, mug hard. dont get own. ahhahaha.

i tried very hard but it ends up being nothing.
TILL THEN ;D

2008-03-13T21:19:00.003+08:00

SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE CHERYLNN. SHE'S NOT EVEN HALFWAY THROUGH HER REVISION FOR HER TESTS TOMORROW. OH SO SHIT -.-

we are like strangers, we used to be very close.
TILL THEN(:

2008-03-13T12:21:00.002+08:00

hello i changed my skin, out of boredom. i seriously too lazy to mug. haha. and if you guys are wondering where's the tagboard. it's up there, just below all those links. oh yes btw, those names are links, for you to exit. yea, so haha.

till then.

2008-03-13T11:26:00.003+08:00

basically im damn screwed now, cos the chem and physics test is tomorrow. BUT HELL, i havent finished physics and i havent started chem! CHEERIOS(: (: (: so im damn screwed. i will just flunk both test. RAH, i hope not lah. but books are turning me off completely.

ok, im still staring at chemical bonding. how great.
till then(:

2008-03-11T22:22:00.001+08:00

HELLO WORLD. i met up with YAPJIEHUI today to "mug". yes "mug" but we end up "mugging" death note instead cos we decided to watch L CHANGE THE WORLD. i seriously think it's damn nice. L is just so damn cute ;D oh, i forgot about pictures today. RAH. yea so moral of the story: me and jiehui cant mug together. LMAO.

CO TMR. rah. i need to continue mugging. wish me luck please. i dont think i can finish and im freaking tired right now. zz.

and i have weird dreams yesterday. damn. i feel so evil. nvm.

i need some sleep.
till then.

2008-03-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

CONGRATS TO NJC PAE S18 OGLS FOR DOING WELL FOR THE A LEVELS ;D

i didnt really mug today. slap myself, i slept through the day cos weather is perfect for sleeping. i must be a pig in my previous life cos sleeping is like my hobby. zz. i got co tmr, and damn 1 to 7.30pm. big shit. i dont think i want to go because i want to mug. zz. see how lah.

and i really want to curse that asshole who came up with chemistry and physics progress test DURING THE HOLIDAYS. damn you, indeed.
till then(:

2008-03-09T20:33:00.001+08:00

i realised i made a big mistake. RAH. sorry everyone ): ): ):

2008-03-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

WAVES, SCREAMS, JUMP AND SHOUT! HOLIDAYS ARE HERE. it's a freaking short one. 1 bloody week only plus the fact that i've 2 test on friday during hols and CO for 2 FULL DAYS. totally damn it. i've no idea how i'm going to find time to mug my progress test which is on friday. SCREAM AND SHOUT. plus holiday hw. gosh, what's a holiday man? i thought i need a break. for this last lap, i'm running this race alone.

and so, i might be meeting yeo shuhan tomorrow. like finally can! but the thing is, i'm super super super tired and super super super lazy. i wish i can wake up. you know serangoon mac isnt that near afterall. esp when i lives in yishun -.-

ok, i slacked my friday AWAY. i practically watched tv whole night. YES WHOLE NIGHT. gosh, i'm a super lazy girl. i really need to get my ass moving and start mugging.

ok, im really sleepy despite sleeping for 10 hours ytd. yes i slept at 8.30pm. how cool.

till then my dears(:

2008-03-05T22:05:00.003+08:00

come to think of it, it's exactly one year since i left njc and it's exactly one year since i entered tjc. it wasnt that bad afterall, great friends i made in njc and our friendship still last. great friends i made in tjc who laughed, cried, emo-ed, eat, sleep and even shit together. haha, i feel blessed. friends are all i need. but i still have to say i miss PAE 07S18 as a class ):

had a super crazy gz junior who make my co practices more lively. never feel this good before during co practice. and love suite rocks my socks ;D damn nice, and i'm getting high(:

i almost zam the wall today to vent out my fustrations. good thing i didnt cos when i think back i felt dumb. it's a torture to be in class, seriously. but im learning to be strong. i need to grow stronger and MUG HARDER. sometimes, closet muggers are scary people. haha.

till then.
i'm missing alot of people now. i wish god can bring them right to me now. rah, take care my dears(:

2008-03-03T19:10:00.004+08:00

you know, i feel like laughing at myself sometimes. i felt like it's a torture in class, to guess whether those words are true. my eyes seems to be giving me the truth instead, those words and actions doesnt tally at all. i spend 2 full periods worrying yet i realised that medicine is just right beside. i just feel like laughing at myself. my presence is not needed at all, isnt it? sometimes, i really think i cant trust those words at all(:

heh, im not emo-ing. it's just some thoughts. and i think i have a super duper imbaa civics tutor with freaking good observation skills. damn, it's a guy for your info(: haha.

econs test tomorrow and I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING YET. oh, and and i didnt score full marks for maths test, in fact i'm far from it ): ): damn, i should wake up and get my ass moving.

you are NOT my everything. get it?(:
TILL THEN ;D

REPLIES TO TAGS:
YIXUAN: corn! oh yes i almost forgot u learn wind surfing! cool shit(: (: heh u can be my coach then ;D take care(: (: (:
MARC: jia you to you too! i'm still hanging on(: (:

2008-03-02T11:29:00.004+08:00

im supposed to be at the cc with shuhan and vanessa but apparently i'm coughing like nobody's business. coughed the night through and lesson learnt? dont switch on the air con to sleep when you are coughing very badly(: haha.

still got quite alot of stuff to do, homework and more homework, assignments and more assignments, test and more tests. my life now revolves around school work and schoolwork. boring life. i simply cant stand it. cant wait for A levels to be over, by then i want do something crazy. i guess im in my comfort zone for too long, i need to step out of it and experience life abit. haha taking of a new sport will be great. windsurfing, wakeboarding sounds damn cool. or even diving. haha water sports simply look damn cool and tempting. i'm so damn tempted. sometimes, you simply needs to do something different and get away from this boring life.

you know it feels good when you have friends around you(: clique came over to my place to do econs project. completed(: then went tuition with vane, maths rocks my socks -.- after that went j8 with vane to roam and talk while waiting for her parents to come. left for roy's house to his sis's bday party. watched them played basketball like nobody's business, bbq-ed, dranked, home sweet home. haha.

i'm happy with life right now. or rather contented with life right now. good friends and true friends(: i guess that's all i need.

TILL THEN(:

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vane: YES MUG MUG MUG. we need to keep mugging! ;D
jinyin: hello dear! yeap life's been good(:
kax: thank you my dear! i've straightened my thoughts and i'm happier now. SMILE TOO(:
shuhan: hey darling! haha. see you soon ok. got anything just give me a call(:

2008-02-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

this week started with a blast, simply because i met up with andrea and vanessa despite monday blues(:(:(: lessons was hell boring plus the irritating fact of no lunch due to econs make-up. i was damn pissed and i fell asleep during econs tutorial with zhihao and sp sitting beside me and they fell asleep too. damn embarassing when ms wong woke the 3 of us up, i practically jumped up. i didnt mean to sleep, i just fell asleep. yea, you know(: after chiong down to town to meet andrea chew! ate a pastamania while we chatted and talked. all the rubbish and stuff that happened last week, haha i shant elaborate. so we went shopping/ hunting for presents. damn i'm so in love with checkered stuff, it's like way too cool(: and i love m)phosis. they stuff are simple but nice. fine mom BANNED me frm buying anymore shoes, heh so now i fell in love with their bags and pants/shorts. way too nice can! and i bought a hp pouch there. simple and nice. gosh, im so in love that brand. ok, so end up we shopped ard and decided to head to serangoon cc to mug. so met up vane and TADA we mugged ;D till the cc close at 9.30pm. heh i so miss them(:

and on a random note, andrea and i was talking about this word call FRIENDSHIP. it sometimes feels that the once so strong friendship seems to be falling apart now. everyone is like drifting off from one another, it kind of hurts me. haha, im not complaining or anything cos i know everyone is way too busy to meet up and catch up. but i just miss the past, the sec 4 times when we hang out together, do everything together, mug together, the o levels times when we encouraged each other, jia you-ed each other, screamed together, the after o levels period when we chiong to play together, shopped together, laughed together. i really miss those times when everyone is still together, or at least we all make an effort to meet up with each other. haha, im not aiming at anyone in particular. i just hope that everyone is doing fine and working hard for the As. maybe this is a test to our friendship. andrea, vanessa, shuhan, michelle, weiming and minghan jia you in whatever you doing now, heh i miss you guys man(:

and i wonder who reads this blog anyway. and i have to emphasize that the above paragraph is not directing at anyone. it's just that i really miss those times. gosh, this sound so cliche. HAHA.

im back to vectors. damn(:
till then.

2008-02-23T18:50:00.002+08:00

HELLO THE SAME OLD CHERYLNN IS BACK. i decided i shall stop whining and move on with my life. i made that decision like a million days ago (Actually just two days ago) so i shan't be affected by anything though i know the truth. whatever, i shall just get my ass moving and start studying. and it starts from tuition, eh tuition makes me feel less guilty for not studying these days. HAHA. and guess what i got a million movies havent watched yet. omfg, im so going to chiong all these movies like next week. hahaha.

i've decided on a life without you. i'm sorry.

TILL THEN.
A LEVELS FTW(:

2008-02-22T22:05:00.001+08:00

this time round, the decision lies on me. what's my choice. what do i want.

2008-02-22T20:16:00.001+08:00

what hurts the most was being so close and watching you walk away.

i've made my mind but you come upset it once again. damn you.

2008-02-22T19:59:00.003+08:00

maths test today was so damn awesome despite not studying for it. pretty easy. the same thing happened today, i just need to get used to seeing that scene. im really ok, my heart is empty now. i feel nothing. haha. i feeling damn gl these days.

and i changed perception of someone today.it taken me quite aback. heh i didnt know he's such a nice guy. felt guilty for seeing him that way. friends are all i need.

MUG MUG MUG.
my only reason to live now.
haha.
and did i mentioned that i love my clique?
(:(:(:

AND SORRY TO WAIKIT, JIEHUI, SIYUAN FOR NOT MEETING YOU GUYS TODAY. damn my swollen eye.

i hope next week will better. im so tired of everything.
:D

TILL THEN(:

2008-02-21T22:25:00.003+08:00

before i hit the bed, i just want to thank all the people who listened to me rant non stop today(: shee ping, suz and VINCENT WU(: thanks man. you guys are the only reason i go to school. and miss yeoshuhan(:(: i love you to bits and pieces.

i've straightened my thoughts, no more crying. it's not worth my tears haha. do whatever you want, as long as you are happy.

life still goes on without him.
im tired frm all the tears. it's so watse of water. haha.

if you happen to read this, tell me the truth even if he hurts. i dont like it hanging there.
TILL THEN.
i will be happier than before.

2008-02-21T21:03:00.003+08:00

i thought i acted like a secondary school kid. all the swearing and everything. im sorry. just tell me the truth thats all.

2008-02-19T21:11:00.003+08:00

hello world. sometimes i wonder who is out there reading my blog. im feeling super restless these day. CO today was great, love suite is damn nice can. super guai lan beat though, had a hard time following the beat. i think i work better under stress. i cant get my ass moving to study. gosh, im so damn tired right now. i feel like slapping myself. you dont even bother, maybe this is what you wanted all along.

OH AND MICHELLE MA! get well soon my dear(:

till then.
life will get better, i hope(:

reply to tags.
vane and ah hock aka tofu: thanks for the concern, i really ok(:
yvonne: no problem girl(: you owe me a hug haha.

2008-02-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

finding back long lost friends make me smile(:

2008-02-18T20:12:00.002+08:00

this post suppose to be in full of wonderful pictures, but apparently im not in the mood to do so. it's just another ending for me. i dunno what else to say, im ok. i think so(:

i thought it doesnt matter, in the end it still hurts.
i joined the mugger clique and i love them.
thanks clique(:

thanks miss yeo shuhan for listening me rant whole night(:

TILL THEN.

2008-02-18T00:03:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY VANESSA DARLING(:

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2008-02-17T13:33:00.002+08:00

i dont need to answer to anybody or anyone. so dont ask me what's happening. cos i've no idea what the hell is happen. i wish i have that answer too.

i dont have time to blog now. im going soon.

2008-02-13T21:23:00.000+08:00

i'm so freaking jealous now cos kor get to party through the night while im mugging through the night. SO DAMN UNFAIR ):

2008-02-13T15:50:00.002+08:00

school, family everything is so damn rubbish. i willing to give up ANYTHING just to exchange a moment of peace. im so tired of everything. i pon school today, wasnt that sick actually but i thought i need a break. irritated.

i never feel so suffocated before.

2008-02-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

chinese new year break is over. two words: F*** YOU. why? go ask my damn damn damn "good" grandma(: (: (: dont mess with me. who cares your status. i still wanna say f you(: anything but my family.

unhappiness aside, CHINESE NEW YEAR WAS FUN ;D all the visitng/gambling. heh i lost money but i still happy. hahaha. darlings came over to my place on sunday, heh it's seems a million years since i last saw them. not full attendance again. this time yeo shuhan never come! that woman is sick, get well soon darling(:

now is back to books. wincent vu is shooing me for his 2 sakae sushi treat. screw him! hahaha. but im back to mugging man. MUG MUG MUG :D

give me some strength(:

TILL THEN :D

2008-02-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

I RAN ROAD RUN TODAY -.- oh yes, i ran. i din really walk except for the part where i waited for yunhui. other than that, i ran. today road run was pretty fun, i think this year j1s are super enthu, and this year house comm is not bad in making the whole atmosphere high. ALPHA lost, din managed to get the overall house challenge shield but then i think ALPHA warriors did pretty well already. hahaha. for once, i feel the house spirit in tjc. haha and i sang the school song today. HAHA.

CNY! haha. yes, it's tomorrow. but currently i'm still damn tired. afternoon help mom with some stuff then decided to go downstairs for manicure and pedicure. HEH i love my nails. it's in pretty shade of RED now. damn hot can. but it's dark red not bright red though. but i still love it man.

CNY CNY. everyone happy CNY. S18 people, please reply my msg can! ;D

till then.

2008-02-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

OMG, ROAD RUN IS TOMORROW AND IM RUNNING. RAH.

2008-02-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO it's been a freaking tiring week man. sch's tmr! RAH i so wanna pon school but kena forced by vincent wu to go school, if not got to treat him sakae. HAHA. irritating. i so not going o treat him sakae man. NO WAY. cos im damn broke. HELL. clique was damn high today so went to eat sakae with roy and sheeping. GOSH, damn full can. chawanmushi is damn damn nice ;D totally faint.

lessons today was freaking fun esp GP! mr hsu is back so the teasing goes on. damn inside joke, laughed till my stomach ached. i pratically laugh through the double period. damn siao lah. pe was hell sian. ran and ran and ran again. gosh can faint sia. i vomit after running -.- idiot. haha

and wednesday is ROAD RUN. kill me please. i so want to pon sch. zz got to take mc. see how. lol.

my cny is so damn free. currently not much programmes YET. heh i hope got hse visiting with the usual peeps. i miss everyone. i hope this trend wont be broken. some things went lost, you wil never find it back. people, meet up please(:

cny are my sleeping days. COME QUICKLY ;D and im damn happy cos cny clothes are more or less settled. im damn last min, i know. and guess what I SAW MY CHECKERED BAG AT M)PHOSIS @ BUGIS. hell 38.60. i so want it man! AHHH. faint.

ADVANCE HAPPY NEW YEAR :D
till then(:

2008-01-31T19:35:00.000+08:00

tiring week indeed. but little gestures like a hello sms from alvin the chipmunk aka crocodile really brightens my super pissed day. and all the tags on my board, thanks guys(: cherylnn is still hanging on, and struggling to stay strong.

today was a damn bad day, everything just went wrong totally. im like dead tired today, i keep dropping the stuff i'm holding. i dropped my pens like one million times in lecture theatre today, so damn pissed. and why are we the only ones slogging our hearts out for the STUPID stall for the DUMB cny carnival. i dont understand why the arrow turn and shoot at us while the rest just shake leg and get all the dumb credits. IT'S JUST NOT FAIR. it's a class thing, everyone said yes, what shit thing we get. making things worst is that, he doesnt seems to understand. today i vented on him, i was on the verge. i need some time alone to think all over. pretty stressed up, over undone stuff. i wish im free enough to go out too but guess what, my schedule is really packed. with parents kp-ing is more than enough. dont add on to my stress level.

finally we thrashed things. again, like how many million times. things arent as simple as i thought. gosh, all those differences are turning me off completely. why cant he (for once) be of same frequency as me. how long is this going to hold on. it really makes me ponder.
i wish im a kid.
till then(:

2008-01-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

im barely hanging on, life is just super tiring. i came home everyday ard 8 plus 9 plus. i sit on my table, struggling to keep my eyes open and complete my endless pile of hw. then KO-ed. i simply have no time to study at all. gosh, im really damn tired- physically and mentally. j2 life is simply a torture. i sometimes wondered how i survived today, and how many more todays can i survive. close to giving up, but come to think of it IT'S ONLY JANUARY. there are much more months and days to survive before the As come. for that, it's seems worth it suddenly. in this society, we are left with no choice but fight for that piece of paper for a better place. it slapped me awake and back to reality, i need to fight on and continue struggling. give me some strength please(:

if you can make it through today, you can make it through tomorrow too. dude, hang in there. we are all in this together. dont lose hope, dont lose faith. life's been a bitch for everyone, so hang on there ;D

i never thought life could be that tiring. im back to my books(:
till then(:

2008-01-28T21:25:00.001+08:00

hello monday is here again ): ): ):

nevertheless, last saturday was PURE LOVE ;D met up with darlings to celebrate AUNTIE ANDREA'S 18 BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE. full attendance minus one. the whole scene is so funny but so much love! whipped cream, cake, sparkles. HAHA so damn fun lah. photos are private, i promised auntie andrea not to upload her unglam photos. HAHAHAHA. i hope she enjoyed her day ;D

sunday go green day was kinda fun too. collect rubbish eh actually newspaper and old clothings with our DM! holy man. he's not bad lah. he treated the class chendol. YES BELIVE IT OR NOT. FTONG TREATED 05/07 CHENDOL. one person one ok. but i didnt go cos rushed off to meet mummy, auntie and cousins. GOSH, they are freaking rich can. THE LV BAG WAS AWESOME LAH! hahahaha.

k it's back to monday blues, this week super hardcore again. and today is a bad day. cos im like having fucking cramps now. HELLO it's damn pain can. ok back to chemistry(:(:(:

till then(:

2008-01-25T19:57:00.000+08:00

ZHONGHUA OIE! ;D thanks to the just graduated batch, zhonghua moved to band 1! so proud to be a zhonghuarian. dont look down on us ok(: congrats to all of them for their fantastic results. good job man. was reading some gz juniors blog and talking to some of them ytd, think they are not very happy with their results. GIRLS, i totally understand how you guys feel ok. seeing others improve so much but you didnt improve at all. people who used to be behind you now overtook you. not able to get into the school you wanted to cos you missed a little bit. cheer up ;D i've been through that. i understand the feeling sucks completely lah. but 10 points is good le. it's not even easy to get less than 20 in the first place. if you did your best, no regrets ok! cheer up girls(: (: (:

today is friday!(: (: wasted my time cos of the stupid SC dialogue. totally inefficient SC we have, they couldnt answer 3/4 of the qns shoot at them. and they didnt read up my comment, make me so f*** up. AHAHHAHA.

weekend will be super super super busy. hai. need a break soon. CNY COMING(: (:

oh last monday celebrated qinkai ;D and shee ping's birthday. sabo-ed them. we went opp school to prepare all the stuff. whip cream and more whip cream. end up everyone tio whip cream. got to go back school to bathe. HAHAH my hair stinks totally thanks to shee ping and teck kian. but it was hell fun! hahaha.

ok im seriously very tired. tomorrow will be a fun day ;D
till then(:

2008-01-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

cornea abrasion comes knocking on my door again. but this time it's the son cos i dont need eye patch. good thing. eye still hurts when i blink and it's still swollen. decided to give school a miss today. practically slept my day through, i've no idea that im so damn tired. i didnt even get to sleep much during the weekends. guess school is really out to kill me.

oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BK, you old tofu ;D

o levels results are out tmr. good luck to current j1s/graduated sec 4s. i still remember i was like them waiting eagerly for my results which end up in a pool of tears. ahhaha, i was laughing and crying at the same time.

im tired. i need more sleep. haha.
till then(:

2008-01-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

today me and auntie andrea is super lazy! we end up not mugging but shopping and roaming around in j8. SO OMG! but we met up with BK to pass him his tofu ;D and treat him to pastamania for his advance birthday. haha it's been a long time since i sat down and talk to him this way man. still that SAME OLD him, with his super lame actions and what have you.

tomorrow will be a fun day(: i shall not say too muc. GIRLS ARE EVIL (: (: (:

im not going to think so much. let time heal, please. haha

SCHOOL'S TMR! SO DAMN DAMN EFFING BITCHY. till then.

i hope we are not losing it. im not refering to him.

2008-01-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

fuck shit, im getting super emo these few days. i wonder what is wrong with me.

today had tuition after slacking for the whole of friday night. after tuition met mom for lunch or rather teatime then went to sp's hse for her birthday party. didnt do much, watched 881 and ate steamboat. freaking full cos there's like damn lot of food. super yummy. then cut cake and so ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHEE PING :D her family is so damn cute and friendly. left her place ard 11pm, took 853(:(: heh my 4 years bus. HOHO. talked to roy on the bus. about lots of stuff. thanks bro!(:

im seriously tired right now. physically and mentally.

and so the feeling is getting weird. i didnt know how to face it. i took me some time to realise that there's so much differences. i was so confident but now you are making me lose confidence. i have no intention to leave but it's like i've no idea how to go about solving it. the basic trust is not even there and it's like 2 months only, problems are surfacing. someone enlighten me please.

2008-01-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

i decided to delete my previous post. i think only BK managed to read it, kpo shit ;D im deleting it cos i shouldnt be complaining. cos i made this choice myself. rather i should go try understand him. for once, im so not that cherylnn that i used to be. but seriously, i feel like hurling vulgarities right now. i dont feel very good.

i still ask for that little, tiny bit of trust from you.

im tired, both physically and mentally. someone please enlighten me and give me some strength and direction.

till then.

2008-01-14T19:53:00.001+08:00

oh my god, im so turned off by gp now. it's like gp lessons everyday with 2 days of double period. SUPER IRRITATING. it's like damn boring can. i completely turned off during lesson today and he can see that stone look in me. rubbish, and im rushing to complete gp HOLIDAY homework now. HELL MAN. SUPER SUPER SUPER BITCHY. im in a damn not good mood now. and i just vented on BK. ahh, felt so bad. sorry BK! pai seh. GENERAL PAPER IS SO DAMN BITCHY.

tmr will be a long day cos i got cca. RAH RAH RAH. im not going to pon. RAH RAH RAH FRIDAY FASTER COME PLEASE.

EFFING GENERAL PAPER.
till then.

2008-01-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO! :D

today is a happy day cos i get to see my peeps! andrea, vanessa and minghan :D they nv fails to put a smile on my face. studying with them is always so much love and fun :D and serangoon cc rock cos it's always productive going there. i finished chem holiday homework and econs tutorial ;D more mugging sessions please (:(:(:

before mugging, met auntie andrea at j8 to get some stuff. HOHO WE BOUGHT BK'S BIRTHDAY PRESENT. it's just so ahem! ahahaha. bought a soft toy flower dor dearest vanessa which later became the weapon to poke me. STUPID MINGHAN! hahaa. mug mug mug. after mugging, me andrea and minghan went to had zi zhar. wha freaking full man but pretty nice. chatted, talked and laughed. i love it this way(:

there's a change in timetable. MONDAY BLUES! double gp period. omg! please kill me. and tuesday lessons are extended. ok no diff to me since i got CO at 4.30pm. rather, it's a blessing in disguise. this way i wont pon anymore. oh yea, you nv see wrongly, im going CO practice from now on -.-

ok, most likely i will be mugging with the same peeps at KAP on friday. wait for auntie andrea to end dance then we go supper :D woohoo. im very addicted to mugging. dont date me unless it's to mug. HAHA HARDCORE MUGGER NOW :D

and i miss YEO SHU HAN! stupid girl! very long nv see you. DATE ME SOON IF NOT I SMACK YOUR BUTT :D

school's tomorrow. im trying very hard to convince myself that school rocks. HAHA.

till then(:

2008-01-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

TGIF :D

it's been a torturing week. lessons and more lessons. homework and more homework and EVEN MORE homework. rushing to meet datelines, to study for test. im so damn shag every single day. could have died. change of teachers for gp/ct and econs. DAMN THEY CHANGED MDM TENG AWAY! but then, the new CT which is my gp teacher is pretty fine too. act fierce but still lose to our class. our class has a way with act fierce teachers. the class is getting pretty cool. with so much laughters and lame stuff (: i survived two days of double gp period. kill me please. HAHA.

i was pretty excited over J1 commencement ceremony. because i want my JTS! but the super damn thing is that, 05/07 GOT NO JUNIOR CLASS. fugly irritating. there goes my jts ): im was so damn sad.

little misunderstanding yesterday. didnt quarrel but he was angry. ok, i guess it's my fault. but that's the way i have been, that's the way i treat friends. maybe things are different now, i should make the line clear. anyway, everything is cleared up. thank you. tomorrow is an important day :D

AND HELLO I GOT LIKE 1 MILLION HOMEWORK TO BE DONE. it's like the weekend but not holiday. RAH. i hate datelines. but cherylnn shall be guai and do her work.

oh and i will happily flunk chem test. i din study. i felt so damn dumb during maths test today. i cant belive i wrote 1 step for a 4 marks qn. what is my problem man. stupid stupid and ultra stupid.

tired week but i felt accomplished. im not going to pon co. and im going to figure out how to play A major on guzheng. and i trust me i can do it :D

i miss twister fries! and i feel like eating chicken pie and tao huay at serangoon N&B (isit n&b? cant rmb). VANESSA AND ANDREA! CHICKEN PIE AND TAO HUAY DATE SOON OK :D :D :D

oh did i mention i super addicted to spirited away although i think i watched it for like 4 freaking times. trust me, it's damn nice. i simply love the songs ;D

land pe on monday. no swimming ): haha. i rather swim than run. i think i got a freaking weak heart -.- train train train train train train.

till then.
i need some retail therapy(:

2008-01-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ONE YEAR OF FRIENDSHIP TO PAE 07S18(:(:

i hope everyone will be happy from now on. stay strong girl, we love you alot(:(:

my head is bursting soon, headache damn bad. gosh.
till then.

2008-01-06T22:41:00.001+08:00

i didnt go for 4e1`06 gathering. i think i kind of regret not going. rah, but i was dead tired. almost flipped. i hope they had fun (: (: (:

i guess im meeting vanessa tomorrow :D :D silly woman keep insisting she's very bored in school. and i rotted my day today. sleep and sleep and sleep. and my stomach feels weird these day. always hurt after a meal. dumb ass.

school officially starts tomorrow. haha a levels for the win.

i'm lost, show me some light. i seriously hate that place, the people, the things and everything. turn me off completely. F*** shit :D

till then.

2008-01-04T21:15:00.000+08:00

RAH RAH RAH. school totally suck today. i rotted 3 hours in school. end lecture at 9.30am but can only get out at 12.30pm. WTS. i seriously hate the school system. tjc is turning me off completely. esp ~~tjco~~. i seriously hate it. especially when roy ang is quitting, HE PS-ED ME. what a friend. HAHA joking. i hope he's happy in tourism club. HAHA im such a nice friend (:(:(:

A levels is all i care now. turning into hardcore mugger, next week. HAHA. i seruously cant wait for it to over, to get OUT of temasek junior college. it was a mistake from the start.

this is really bad.
life goes on(:
TILL THEN.

2008-01-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

first day of school. nothing much with only 1 lesson and 4 hrs plus of rotting and stoning in school. nice to see everyone back in school though. but pretty boring and watse of time. HAHA. ard 10 zhonghuarians in tjc with ultra long skirt that can mop floor. haha i seriously think im not guai back in zhonghua. at that time, i still think that my skirt is damn long -.- come to think of it, ok it's pretty short compared to theirs. HAHA. zhonghua discipline is stepping up. haha.

k i need to sleep. till then(:

2008-01-01T00:41:00.001+08:00

i think my family is freaking cute. this is how they spent their new year's eve. daddy went to home. brother came back from army and slept through the day. me and mommy rotted our day at home, talking crap to each other, eating MAGGIE MEE for lunch and going to florist in the evening to stare at flowers. at night, while everyone is high-ing at vivo/sentosa, me and my cousin are doing our homework while the tv screams "10, 9, 8 .. " the two of us cant be bothered, im too occupied doing differentiation and she's too occupied doing her whatever chinese assessment book. and the rest of my family is busy playing mahjong, cursing and swearing at how they almost gamed. LOL. i just love my family. simple so cute :D

oh and i re-watched spirited away today(: i still love that show.

i wish bf will be back soon, tomorrow :D and i hope time pass more slowly PLEASE. i dont like school with cca on the very first day. WTS.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! sorry if i din reply all your msges, msg limit over! haha. MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE AND ALL THE BEST :D

2007-12-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

i'm pretty eff-ed up now cos blogger just deleted my post. and the fact that school is reopening in 2 days time makes me even more eff-ed up. i hate school(: and i seriously cant be bothered by that pile of irritating homework anymore. SHOO. bf is not in spore AGAIN. rah. im feeling pretty pissed now, so dont irritate me(:

enough of that rubbish, serious stuff

2007 is ending soon, and thank god(: im seriously looking forward to 2008 cos 2007 had been a super long and torturing year for me. however, many memories was made and left in my heart. 1st three months in njc, orientation and 07S18 PAE really make a difference in my life this year. i still miss that united and crappy class(: followed by kick out of njc to ~~tjc~~. it was really torturing. gosh, i thought i couldnt survive and i will transfer out. hello, that really crossed my mind. i survived(: with the help of certain people. now it's time of the year, the same old thing again and here it goes(:

the dearest people in my life(:

andrea, vanessa, shuhan, michelle ng, weiming, minghan and aaron

i really need to thank you guys for being there whenever i need you. especially the girls who hear me rant non stop about school about bitchy people. HAHA. although it's very difficult to arrange to meet up all together but i was really glad that everyone always try to squeeze out time to meet up. all the laughter and all the fun i had whenever i meet up with you guys. i hope our friendship will hold on. CHEERS TO OUR FRIENDSHIP :D

bf, qinkai(:

it's really weird how we get together but nevertheless i was glad to be with you. thank you for putting up with all my nonsense and what-have-you. HAHA. we going to work hard next year, LOVES(:

constance, michelle ma :D

i havent forgotten about you girls! and no way im going to forget about you girls. now in differnt school le, really hard to meet up. i really miss all those good old times back in zhonghua. i sometimes wished we could be as good as last time in secondary 2 and 3. i miss you girls. meet up soon ok :D LOVES! (:

07S18 PAE!

i happy that certain people still put in the effort to organise outings and gatherings!(: work hard guys for A levels and outings sooon(:(:(:

jiehui(:

HELLO WOMAN! although we know each other for a short while but surpirsingly you and me click so damn well. HAHA. i miss your laughter and your crappy jokes! haha. hear you rant soon. call me and crap ok. HAHA our kbox outing. dont forget. study hard ok! :D

roy(:

arent you honoured! haha. thanks for being in the same class as me after 1st 3months. if not i could have died in tjc and in ~~tjco~~. HAHA. me and you simply have great minds cos we always think alike. thanks for hearing me rant non-stop on the mrt/969! haha. you know all the rubbish we talked about. GV GANG! all the best for next year! :D

the clique,

suzanne, shee ping, vincent, samuel

thanks for all your crapping in school and thus brightened up my life in school! especially suzanne and vincent who always hear me talk non-stop about my stuff. you guys have been great partners in school :D

last but not least, joey ng aka BK.

hello i dedicate this part to you to remind you that you owe me SAKAE SUSHI. dont pretend and forget about it. and also my 4 years bday present! WAHAHAHA. anyway got to thank you cos you always let me bully HAHA. and also hear me rant. you better treat me sakae sushi soon, YOU BK :D

hohoho thats all! i hope next year will be a better for me and for everyone. all the best everyone and happy new year :D

2007-12-29T01:32:00.000+08:00

damn it, i'm so addicted to GUCCI wallet now. yes, gucci! it's freaking expensive in retail stores. and gucci sales are always pretty rubbish cos it's always a clearance sale and not a storewide sale thingy! rah. but buying a gucci is so splurge. BUT IT'S REALLY NICE. and if get a fake one, it will look fake. i dont have a liking for unauthentic goods. gosh, when i go to work, i swear i'll get a gucci(: it's so pretty :D

so pretty isnt it!(:(:(: love it completely. enough of all these high end stuff, i cant afford it at all. a wallet which cost at least 200 bucks. thanks ar.

AND did i mention that bf is back but gone again. hate it completely.
it was a shock that day, i guess i wasnt prepared.

I SO NEED TO SLEEP.
NIGHT or rather MORNING -.-
till then(:

2007-12-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

was looking at certain photos that day. this mad urge to develop all the photos taken. especially those with 4e1`06(: PAE 07S18 :D and obviously my darlings! those mad memories at suki sushi and many many more. it seems like yesterday.

shoutout soon. most probably this weekend. i've got lots of ppl to thank this year for helping me pull through this torturing year. im looking forward to 2008(:(:

meanwhile some overdued pictures from SLC`07. enjoy.

slc group- DOTS(:

dots at caving(:

dots!

dots after night activity!

replies to tags! (:

minghan: no way you are choosing man! i bet you going to force me watch alien Vs predator 2! no way. kill me i also wont watch. HAHA. i dont want another nightmare :P

ANDREA: auntie andrea! dont kill me ar. haha! yes i had a nightmare. GOSH. stupid minghan -curse and swear- HAHAHA. vampires are filling my mind. gosh.

marc: merry christmas! mahjong session soon! :D

allyssa: HAHA yay finally! and i saw you! :D

2007-12-25T04:24:00.000+08:00

im like effing online now cos i just woke up and i couldnt fall asleep. STUPID SONG MINGHAN'S FAULT! went to watch I AM LEGEND which is freaking scary can. i screamed like 1 million times inside the cinema, and half of the time my eyes are closed. GOSH, i cant take this kind of thrillers lah! so i've no idea what makes me wake up and after i wake up i really couldnt. too scared to sleep. @#$%^&*()_ effing hum ji sia. but AHH! i dont watch this kind of stupid show.

anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :D thanks to andrea, aaron, wei ming, minghan, shu han and michelle for all the christmas present(:(:(: hope you guys like my present. alot of love one ok :D

i miss my dearest! 2 more days(:(:(:(: i wish you were here now.

2007-12-23T00:35:00.000+08:00

today was super sian cos my dearest went overseas today! 5 freaking days. gosh. i hope he will come back safe and sound(:(: and most imptly he better dont bring a china mei back, HAHA. just joking :D

HOWEVER! AUNTIE ANDREA brightened my day :D :D :D :D met her around 6 pm at orchard cos she wanted to get christmas present for her you-know-who. however, dear auntie andrea is broke so she decided not to get anything. HAHA. as you know, she's an auntie so she super kiam siap one. (she will definitely kill me if she sees this :D) actually, they agreed on not getting anything for each other to save time and money (SEE, kiam siap right. LMAO) ok, enough of auntie andrea and her whoever whoever whoever, before she really bring a knife down to yishun to skin me alive :D haha. and so we walked around to taka to visit dear carmen shifu. we walked from b1 to b2 to level 2 BUT dearest carmen shifu is nowhere to be seen. and so we gave up and walked to heeren. SATURDAY CROWD IN ORCHARD IS OMG. my stupid watch is not ready yet. frigging 2 months liao lah. i didnt cursed :D went to cineleisure to eat our CHEAPO JAP FOOD at kobayashi! damn nice can and it's cheap. (it's always good to go out with auntie andrea cos you can save money. she damn cheapo one :D) we sat there and gossiped and bitched and rant about being a j2 soon. AND CINELEISURE SELLS DAMN NICE VINTAGE SATIN DRESS! i totally love it man. the material and everything! AHHH. im so in love with it. but it's lke 54 bucks ): ): i need sponsor ): im broke. my mind is like full of that stupid dress now. i secretly wished that 54 bucks will drop from the sky right now. HAHA. AND LIMELIGHT OF THE DAY 1: we walked ard KINOKUNIYA where we are like IDIOTS laughing non stop. cos auntie andrea picked up something and said "REMOVABLE WRITING PAPER" and she give me the WOW look. since great minds think alike, we thought that it means if you write on that paper, the writing can be removed or something. IN THE END IT WASNT. IT'S JUST PAPER THAT CAN BE DETACHED -.- we laughed like shitheads. anyway FOR MORE INFORMATION ON REMOVABLE WRITING PAPER, please call AUNTIE ANDREA :D we then collected her stuff and head to wisma atria then TRAINED HOME :D AND THIS LIMELIGHT OF THE DAY 2: we marina-bayed (i invented a new word -.-) resulting in ample of time on the train so we decided to cam whored! and this is what we did in the train.

title: REMOVABLE WRITING PAPER

storyline: in this "story", andrea will be acting as cherylnn. and cherylnn will be acting as andrea(:

HAHA. seriously this whole thing is freaking lame. i've no idea what happened to me and auntie andrea. we are like so damn auntie can! haha. anyway, auntie andrea is NOT kiam siap ok. it's just my assumption. HAHA. AND I LOVE AUNTIE ANDREA! :D more of such stupid things please :D

2007-12-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

LOVE IS BEING STUPID TOGETHER. and that is so damn true :D steamboat with darlings at shuhan's place was PURE LOVE cos we did STUPID things together (:(:(: steamboat was really great! met with AUNTIE SHUHAN and AUNTIE ANDREA at hougang to shop for food at NTUC. so freaking aunties. OR RATHER 2 rich auntie and 1 flippino maid xD lmao. went back to han's hse to prepare food then MR SONG MINGHAN came over early to help. or rather made a mess out of everything. HAHA. wait for everyone to came then talked, laughed, joked, suan-ed people, di siao-ed people. SO DAMN FUN :D after steamboat, guys went to play mahjong while girls cleared up, chatted, talked cock and most importantly CAMWHORED. camwhore was so damn funny and full of laughter. we look so damn idiotic! STEAMBOAT WAS REALLY FUN. i love every single one of them. this friendship is simply so pure, so strong :D

and all these are evidence of LOVE :D

2007-12-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

HOHOHOHO IM EXCITED. cos tmr we are having STEAMBOAT with DARLINGS :D :D steamboat at shuhan's hse! totally awesome. and most importantly tomorrow wil be 99% full attendance! gosh, cant wait. sounds so damn fun and so damn shiok. it's going to be a torture day for me and dearest. but who cares. cant wait to see everyone!(: (: (: TMR TMR TMR TMR :D

today was a bad day. but im going to prove to you, i meant what i say. i wasnt angry, i was ~~disappointed~~. i hate that feeling of distrust, dishonesty especially when i thought you understand. but it's my fault and im going to show it to you.

im still excited over tomorrow(:

2007-12-13T17:53:00.000+08:00

IM BACK FROM PAE S18 CHALET (or rather clique chalet haha) the chalet was a damn relaxing one, no bbq no mad rush, just go there, sit down talk cock play mahjong. so damn relaxing! a million thanks to everyone who went, jiehui, aiwei, allyssa, felix, kian, roy, yixuan, siyuan, alvin, marcus, jiaxiang and waikit! you guys made the chalet more fun, more laughter(: thank you all. more of such chalet PLEASE(:

oh and squeezing 5 people on the bed was pretty much a bitch. HAHA. my back still ached(:

and i met dearest during the chalet. dearest gave me a pleasant surprise. 12 december 2007 :D thank you for everything.

till then(:

2007-12-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

it's been 1234567890 million years since i last blogged -.-

internship officially ended(: the kids there are adorable when they are not mischevious. HAHA. but there was this concert for them where they get to dance. gosh damn cute. handsome little boys and pretty litle girls(:(: after concert ended, felt abit bu she de. it's like dont mind going back there to see the kids again. they are adorable lah(: pictures next time. im lazy.

and i realised there's one million stuff or rather ~~DREADING~~ homework NOT DONE. oh my god, let's see.

1) internship journal
2) maths assignment 1, 2, 3, 4
i finished 2/3 of assignment 1 ONLY(:
3) physics long structured qns
gosh there's like 1 million qns -.-
4) 50 chemistry mcq and 10 long structured qns
5) 2 full gp paper
6) econs project

TADA. that's ALL for my hols homework. and for your info, i really done nothing at all. pretty shitty. STUDY DATES PLEASE(: and while he's overseas, i can take the time to do my homework(: so determined to do well, to prove them wrong. GO GO GO(:

OH AND PAE S18 CHALET THIS WEEK! I SERIOUSLY CANT WAIT TO SEE EVERYONE. gosh i miss them so much. people like jiehui, aiwei, allyssa, felix, kian, yixuan, siyuan, marc, kai xin, ah beng and the lists goes on. PEOPLE COME FOR CHALET OK(: (: (:

oh yes, had lunch with suzanne ytd. like finally. HAHA.

and shopping with mama was damn good lah. esp when im so short of CASH(: mummy bought me a white dress(: i seriously want that yellow dress at zimple @ far east. should hve bought both lah. gosh. oh and my new heels killed me completely hahaha. shoppping with heels is like total killer. but much or less used to it now. HAHA.

and im feeling so blessed!(: (:

on a random note, i miss constance soh and michelle ma! women please meet up soon! and the same goes to my dearest darlings. ya family gathering -.- HAHAHA.

thats all. im tired. tmr is a long day. piano lesson the tuition then meet andrea and wei ming then shuhan's concert. gosh. im so busy. HAHAHA.

and tues is the dreadful CO test thingy. full of shit. go there and screw and whatever. im too lazy to bring my qin out. seriously too lazy(:

TILL THEN(:
i love my lao gong :D

2007-11-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

i so need to blog, cos i thought supposedly my private thing which i have NO NEED to make announcement or xiang anybody jiao dai became a you-better-tell-me thing. omg. nvm, only miss yeoshuhan will understand. i miss you babe!(:

and seriously this blog is being spied on. but i dont care. INFER YOURSELVES LAH. basket.

TODAY FIRST DAY OF INTERNSHIP. hello, cherylnn and a bunch of kids. MISCHEVIOUS KIDS that almost make me fainted. it's pretty slack just that im separated from SHEE PING. she's going hougang. omg i hate that completely. today was pretty boring in fact. im tired cos i woke at 7am. shitter bugger.

2 more weeks for internship. and im supposed to do some journal sai thing. but havent do. im supposed to do my maths assignment. also havent do. im supposed to do physics assignment. i cannot even remember where is it. im supposed to do some chemistry assignment. i shall continue looking for it. HAHA. GG LAH.

and to andrea, mich, minghan and njcians: life is short and fragile. no one wanted such tragedy to happen. cheer up guys(: (:

I MISS MY DARLINGS. gosh. please meet up soon.

i so need to sleep(:

2007-11-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

我们是中华的儿女
我们是社会的中坚
这是我们的天府
这是我们的学田
好好的耕种礼义廉耻
十二守则要躬践
励行五育奋发南天
爱护我们的山河
建设我们的乐园

We, sons and daughters of Zhonghua
Are to be courteous and righteous
And edified and dignified
Zhonghua our centre of knowledge
Onward together strive with fervour
To fulfill our aspirations
Stand up for Zhonghua! Stand up for Zhonghua!
Pledge to Zhonghua, we'll do our best
In whatever we pursue.

i've no idea how i end up at zhonghua's home page. then i click on school song. omg, i so miss that place i realise. NO THAT !#@$%^&*() PRINCIPAL. but the teachers, the place, 4e1`06(: lots of teachers are gone.and whats left in that place are memories. secondary school days there was really fun. ive never regretted entering zhonghua. i so miss that place! omg. i miss 4e1`06(:(: i miss that class spirit, all those laughter in class. all those lame jokes shot at teachers. omg. so much memories.

http://www.zhonghuasec.moe.edu.sg/schoolsong.aspx
but i know it's till time to move on.

2007-11-21T18:38:00.000+08:00

omg, what am i thinking.

2007-11-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

im so pissed off by CO. omfg.

A: SOMEONE
B: ME

A: heyhey
A: why dint u come for pracs?
A: newcomers have to perform in front of SLs and comm members in dec leh
B: huh
B: i gz de
A: same
B: i got slc last week
A: at least inform ur SL ma
A: anyways
A: there was a rule last week
A: or rather last last week
A: every prac not attended requires an excuse letter or MC
A: and ure limited to 2 excuse letters per term only
A: and if ure 10min late for prac, u gota copy all ur scores

AYE WTF LAH. PISSED PISSED PISSED. I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHY IM CONSIDERED A NEWCOMER IN GZ. WTF. TJCO IS PISSING ME OFF. FUCK.

2007-11-19T23:20:00.001+08:00

i love my lao gong(:

2007-11-19T20:22:00.000+08:00

i didnt mug today! so omg. but i managed to caught up with vanessa goh! love that woman(:(:(: HIGH TEA HIGH TEA(:(:(:

and i met love today cos someone pon training(: i want that feeling to stay.

I DONT FEEL LIKE GOING PRACTICE TMR. RAH RAH RAH RAH.

and he makes me ponder about myself. i feel insecure cos i lack that confidence in myself. i think im making him stressed cos of this. im just afraid that he will leave like others did. im afraid he will leave. at the same time, i don want to stress him out. i need to stop being so paranoid. stand by me, please dont ever leave.

2007-11-19T11:17:00.001+08:00

im freaking bored at home lah. omg ): ): ): ): ): im meeting vanessa later to mug! YES MUG MUG MUG MUG. i got truck loads of homework left untouched. and if you havent realise it, 1/4 of the hols is GONE. so omg lah.

and we worked out that we will only be able to see each other on wednesday. wts. trainings and practices are a watse of our time. lmao.

AND I SERIOUSLY MISS ALL MY DARLINGS! i guess we can only meet like next week?! girls! high tea PLEASE. hahaha it's like been put off for so long lah.

next week i no need to go for CO practice for 2 weeks again. COS I GOT INTERNSHIP. FREAKING HAPPY CAN!(: (: (: (: haha. practices are turning me OFF. omfg(: (: (: (: (:

wed wed wed wed wed. i'm so into you(:

2007-11-18T13:51:00.000+08:00

if certain people dont appreciate all the stuff we did, then fine. i shall stay in my comfort zone and not do anything. why bother. i did what i fucking could. and it wasnt even worth it in the first place. im not in a good mood.

the only reason that can make me smile now is you(:

2007-11-17T23:15:00.001+08:00

and so im back from SLC(: (: (: thank god i survived. caving, rafting and abseiling down the waterfall was hell fun! campsite was rather ok and get to sleep with suzanne(:(: but overall the camp was pretty slack, campfire was total failure. and ya group wasnt as bonding as expected. at least my group wasnt. and group names are so dumb, aloha, BOING, COOLBEANS and DOTZ. omg im in dotz. and really dotz. haha. and i didnt get to take same bus as ____. cos different grp ): and i hardly see ___ , only at night. however, last night at the campsite was so love(: (: (:

and all my worries are gone. everything is cleared up. im felt so relieved, so blessed, so loved(:(:(: thank you, love.

today slept till 1pm. ultimate pig. and and and i went to watched gameplan with ____ at vivo(: omg and i saw michelle! i was so shocked lah and pai seh. HAHA. stupid girl! i love that silly girl. gameplan was nice. funny and touching! the ang moh sitting beside us was even funnier. her laugh is damn hilarious. haha. and i wish this moment could stay forever(:(:(:

last but not least, I MISS ALL DARLINGS. andrea chew, vanessa goh, yeo shuhan, michelle ng, wong wei ming and song minghan! please meet up soon can. omg it's like 1234567890 years since i last saw you guys. find some time this week and have a nice chat over lunch or sth! (: (: (:

you make me smile(:

2007-11-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

SLC TOMORROW UNTIL FRIDAY. pray hard man. haha. and gg i havent finish packing my bag.

REPLIES TO TAGS(: (:

yixuan: HELLO!(: (: (: you mia le ar!
constance: UPDATE YOU SOON! haha. meet me soon PLEEAASE!
michelle: WEI. you also what. MRS _____ hahaha. high tea high tea!

going crazy and this blog is going to be private real soon! most prob after i come back from slc. HAHA(:

TILL THEN!(:

2007-11-12T10:20:00.000+08:00

and so i decided that it's time to tell my girls about it. it was pretty chaotic and im in for endless ka jiao-ing and di siao-ing. HAHA. so much of ka jiao-ing ppl last time. it's now my turn. HAHA. high tea plan today was CANCELLED ): ): ): thanks to mama cos she wanna go get camp stuff only in the afternoon. SORRY GIRLS! (: (: (: i promise to meet you girls after i come back frm ipoh! yes i make sure the lead actor is there too.

im going out later with mama. and i seriously want to make this blog private, to prevent unwanted unnecessary troubles.

he's dying to meet me and im dying to meet him too(: (: (:

breakfast time!(: (: (:

2007-11-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

CHERYLNN IS BORED ): ): ):

haha. went out with parents to seletar tower. it's been long since i sat down staring at the sea(or rather reservoir), thinking about stuffs that happened recently. that feeling was great when everything is so fast paced. so much stuff have happened, so fast that i still not sure what's happening. think about alot of stuff and im really glad to have you by my side(:

im determined to stay up late tonight!(: (: (: (: it's been long since i feel this way.

YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU (:(:(:(:(:(:

ok i shall go watch a drama while waiting for ____ to finish work(:

TILL THEN(: (: (: (:

2007-11-11T13:15:00.000+08:00

DUE TO EXTREME BOREDOM, MY BLOG IS BACK(:(:(:

curse that asshole who deleted my blog, who hacked my gmail acc. CURSE YOU! and im too lazy to do the private blog thingy. and so tada. relink please.

HAPPY STUFF RECENTLY(:(:(:(: CHERYLNN IS A HAPPY GIRL :D :D :D :D

girls, high tea on monday PLEASE(:(: i got a million stuff to tell you girls.

and the reason is you(:

2007-11-07T18:49:00.001+08:00

TESTING TESTING TESING(: